To the Men Who Wanted to Know Me Deeply

He thought I was acting hard, stubborn - impervious to his affection because I was holding on to a bad breakup. I wasn’t.

The reality? I was resisting my flesh in a defiant battle between God’s will and my lustful desires. Unable to fully articulate it all without seeming weird. Why you being weird to me?!

And though I would love to see if this could blossom, I know I would never feel at peace if I decided to settle. Neither would he. So, it is in my best interest that I heed to the conviction of my heart. Once again recalling that what is for me will be - in the timing that it is meant to be.